The searchlight series ends today, and I wanted to disappoint, by not being faithful but I sat down to reflect on why I shouldn’t do that. The series, its beginning to the end was filled with a tale I summed up into a poem. The idea of searchlight popped up twelve weeks before today/tonight, but I couldn’t begin posting since I had some issues with my website.
I faced what the poem below summarises when I was to begin this series, I know I am not the only one facing such thus I decided to share with you my tale through this poem
THE SEARCHING POEM
Can I say the truth to you, dear readers?
Well, take it as a gift; my little present,
I nursed fear,
Yes, like a baby
I nurtured it until it became big,
I became its mother;
Fear became my illegitimate child.
Will you accept my little gift?
Can I hand over my big child to you?
I am growing tired of becoming his mother,
Can I trust you to take care of my baby?
See, the truth is… my baby grew fond of me and I did also,
Though I know we aren’t compatible but,
Can a mother neglect the tears of her suckling child?
Don’t blame me? I began to care for my baby called fear.
Will you still believe me?
The more I cared for fear, the less I become of myself,
I didn’t want to be selfish,
After all, a mother must sacrifice for her child,
If being less of me will make fear grow.
I was happy to do so,
I grew tired, fear wasn’t a baby any longer;
Daily as I grew, fear overshadowed me;
It shouldn’t be so, or should it be?
I was its mother or so I thought?
Fear should give heed to my instruction but no, it isn’t so;
It became my master while I thought I was its mother.
I write to you readers with a heavy heart,
Or perhaps I have mothers among my readers?
Does your child overshadow you and become your master?
I don’t understand, help me?
I was meant to be my baby’s mother and master,
But as funny as it seems ironical, I ended up being a slave under my illegitimate child.
I grew up strong, independent of my choices and learning from my mistakes, but nothing cripples me than the reality of being helpless as against fear. But I stumbled on a verse of the bible in 2 Timothy 1:7“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love and of a sound mind”. My orientation changed, I could be stronger than my fears because God has given me a spirit that conquers fear; the spirit is triple folded, it contains power, love and sound mind. Take a look at it from this angle, 3:1; which is greater; of course three. I live now with the reality that whenever fear comes in, maybe unawares to me; I can easily remember I wasn’t given the license by my heavenly father to be filled with fear. I don’t have a choice but to overcome fear. I am not a slave to fear, neither am I the mother but I triumph over it because I have a spirit that conquers fear.
“You are not licensed to live a life filled with fear and dread by your creator, you are filled with power, love and strong mind because you are a child of God” Bask in this reality, your fear will soon become bygone.
Searchlight ends FINALLY!!! I can boldly say, it has been God. I wrote on fear to cap it all because I dealt with fear when the series was to begin but I overcame it. You too can overcome your fear like I did. Do you enjoy following me on this series? Kindly, leave your comments below; it goes a long way in encouraging. Another series will drop soon, WAIT FOR IT.